Note:
The following letter came to us on the Internet shortly
after the New York/Washington attacks. It chronicles the
events of September 11 for one of the surviving members
of FDNY Haz-Mat 1 & Squad 288, Phil McArdle
Letter
from Ground Zero
9/22/2001
5:17 PM
To
Whom It May Concern:
I
am sorry I have to write a letter: this way, being impersonal
and general in nature (my time is being concentrated on
survivors and the victims families).
I
will do the best I can at trying to bring all of you up
to date on the circumstances surrounding the tragic events
of the World Trade Center from my perspective about FDNY
Haz-Mat 1 & Squad 288.
My
day started off pretty routinely, getting relieved early
so I could go to a meeting about training issues with the
Chief of Haz-Mat Operations BC Jack Fanning. Before going
to meet Jack, I went to meet my wife Eileen. She was working
in the City at a school in the Bronx and had brought some
material from home that I intended to show Jack. I was running
behind and about 15 minutes late to meet Jack. Little did
I know at the time, that both John Hohmann (who relieved
me early) and Jack Fanning (by rushing out of the office)
had both spared my life; they are both still missing at
the World Trade Center.
When
I had gotten to Jack's office, Jeff Borkowski had already
been in contact with Jack. Jack wanted both Jeff and myself
to come down to the trade center. We loaded up a Suburban
with some extrication devices and some SCBA and off we went.
We
went down the FDR Drive and when we got on the FDR from
upper Manhattan, we saw the second plane hit Tower two of
the Trade Center. Continuing south on the FDR we went through
the tunnel under Battery Park and came up on West Street
on the south side of Tower 2. As Jeff and I looked north
on West Street we could (see) a large number of civilians
and emergency workers running towards us. For a brief moment
we were slightly confused; why were emergency workers running
away? In no time at all we quickly realized what was happening,
Tower #2 was collapsing and everyone was trying to avoid
the collapse zone. The debris from the collapse quickly
overtook our vehicle and although we had just parked the
vehicle we could hear the sounds of people running into
ours, as well as other vehicles because of zero visibility.
We donned breathing apparatus and proceeded into the trade
center area. Along the way we gave some fresh air from our
SCBA to people who were having difficulty breathing directing
them to head south on West Street to safety. We continued
to proceed north into the collapse area where we came upon
a photographer with an obvious broken leg lying on the ground.
He was in great pain and did not want to be moved. He was
under the walkway that crossed West Street from the Trade
Center to the World Financial Center. Fearing for his safety
we moved him farther west from the collapse area to the
inside of a deli located in a building away from West Street.
Returning back to the same area where we just removed the
photographer, we (were) now going to proceed back to the
rubble to search. We began searching just as Tower #1 started
to come down. We ran for cover in one of the buildings directly
across the street at the World Financial Center, diving
through a window and hiding behind one of the columns in
the building. I could feel the pressure and the debris rushing
past me as I hugged the column. Momentarily it because difficult
to breathe, I started to put my facepiece on. The heat was
pretty intense. I stayed near the column until most of the
noise stopped; everything went black. After a few minutes
we crawled out of the back of the building to safety.
At
this point it was utter chaos trying to find people and
get organized. It took a while to re-organize and find some
people and get working on the rubble to look for survivors.
A total recall was ordered and upon the arrival of a few
more Haz-Mat guys we performed quick surveys of the perimeter
in two teams of four checking for radiation, nerve and blister
agent, all results were negative. We then began digging
for survivors. Sometime after midnight I came off the rubble
pile and was treated by EMS for debris in my left eye. I
was treated at the scene and at Elmhurst Hospital over the
next two days and regained vision in my left eye. I have
been back to the incident a number of times but the main
focus for me and the guys in the firehouse, is dividing
our time between the work at the site and working with the
families.
All
of us at one time or another have asked ourselves, what
would we want the guys to do for our families if something
happened to us. Under usual circumstances when a death occurs,
the Department and the Firefighters Unions (UFA & UFOA)
provide a great deal of support to help the family of the
deceased and the company to which he was assigned. Because
of the extraordinary carnage and the number of missing,
the Department and Union resources are virtually non-existent.
We have had to endure most of the burden of taking care
of the families and ourselves. This is what we have done
so far.
We
have essentially lost half of our operating personnel. While
other special units have been taken out of service, Haz-Mat
1 has continued to operate both down at the site and in
the firehouse. We are continuing to keep both the Squad
and the Haz-Mat families up to date on what little information
is being provided. We have been trying to secure outside
counseling service for the wives, the children of the missing
members, other family members and the guys in the firehouse.
Our daily routine consists of sending personnel down to
the rubble pile to dig and taking care of the 19 families
with virtually no time off
Being
one of the hardest hit firehouses is especially painful;
we have 19 missing. We are not getting ready for the long
process of funerals and memorial services. As of the writing
of the letter only one of our members has been found. We
will bury Lt. John Crisci on Friday of this week. The rescue
operation may not go on much longer.
Many
have asked what can be done to help us. The simplest answer
I can give you is this. PLEASE, Please do not call or write
at this time, we are too busy to reply. We sincerely appreciate
your concern. The time I am spending talking or replying
to E-mails and people on the phone is cutting into the time
we need to spend with and supporting families. You all have
been so sincere and kind, it sometimes becomes difficult
to talk or write back. As I (am) writing or talking to some
of you, I (am) beginning to cry for my friends lost, whom
I will never see again. I don't want your calling or writing
to make me crack. I have to be strong to try and keep the
guys together in the Firehouse. ..
One
last thing, many of you have asked about donations with
this email is a flyer that you can duplicate. The money
is being put into the local bank. All of the money given
to this fund is going to the victim's families from Haz-Mat
and Squad 288. We sincerely appreciate your concern and
thank you for the many kind words you have offered.
May
God Bless us all
Regards
Phil McArdle
FDNY Haz-Mat 1
Note
- Donations to the families of Squad 288 & Haz-Mat 1
can be made to the Firefighters World Trade Center Fund,
56-29 68th St., Maspeth, NY 11378
19
brothers of Squad 288 & HazMat are missing and dead
from the World Trade Center
Squad
288: Firefighter Peter Brennan, Firefighter Ronnie Gies,
Firefighter Joseph Hunter, Firefighter Johnathan Ielpi,
Lieutenant Ronald Kerwin, Firefighter Adam Rand, Firefighter
Brian Sweeney, Firefighter Timothy Welty
HazMat:
Firefighter Dennis Carey, Lieutenant John Crisci, Firefighter
Martin Demeo, Batallion Chief John Fanning, Firefighter
Thomas Gardner, Firefighter John Giordano, Firefighter Jonathan
Hohmann, Captain Thomas Moody, Firefighter Dennis Scauso,
Firefighter Kevin Smith, Captain Pat Waters
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