By
Vera Haller
Newsday.com
March
8, 2002
Barbara
Atwood, the widow of fallen firefighter Gerald Atwood, said she was caught off
guard when she realized the six-month anniversary of the World Trade Center attacks
was approaching.
She
said she hadnt been thinking in terms of months, but rather had been counting
the days since her husband -- the father of her nearly three-year-old son and
20-month old daughter -- had not come home on Sept. 11.
Pregnant
with their third child and close to her due date, Atwood said the reality of her
husbands death had started to sink in.
For
some reason, in the past couple of days, it actually has hit me more. Im
not sure if its because its the six-month anniversary or because Im
due in two weeks and I cant believe hes not going to be here,
she said in a phone interview from her home in Brooklyn.
I
guess you always hope that theres some outrageous miracle or mistake or
something ... and Im going to get a phone call that, Youre not
going to believe this but, ... she said, her voice trailing off.
The
six-month anniversary was marked on Monday with the installation of two temporary
memorials to the nearly 2,900 victims. One incorporates a damaged sculpture from
the Trade Center site and the other is a tribute of light -- two powerful beams
rising from Lower Manhattan to the sky.
Both
memorials were unveiled at separate ceremonies, giving New Yorkers the opportunity
to reflect and remember.
For
Atwood and others who lost loved ones, their pain is felt every day and has not
abated.
Patricia
Tate, the sister of victim Carol Rabalais, said her family is still in denial
that she is gone.
She
just disappeared like that, no body, no nothing to say good-bye to, said
Tate, who lives in the Bronx.
Rabalais
-- who was raising three children aged 20, 14 and 11 on her own -- was a secretary
at AON, an insurance company on the 98th floor of Tower Two. Her children
believe their mom will be coming home. They just believe shes somewhere
and cant find her way home, Tate said.
Laura
Miuccio, of Staten Island, whose father Richard Miuccio was killed in the attacks,
has slowly picked up her life, only recently returning to her job as an administrative
assistant in Manhattan.
She
said on her first day back, she was hit by memories of her father. She said she
used to take the express bus to work and he, the Staten Island ferry. Sometimes,
as he walked to the landing, her bus would pass him and they would wave at each
other.
So
now I just look for him, kind of, when the bus passes by the place he would have
been walking, she said. Everyday, every little thing reminds me of
him.
There
are so many voids left in so many families.
We
are even to this day in disbelief that James is not here, said Michele Cartier,
sister of victim James Cartier, an apprentice carpenter who was working in Tower
Two on Sept. 11.
James
was one of seven children in a close-knit family from Jackson Heights, Queens.
My
mom says making dinner at night is very hard for her because she knows James
favorite plate and what he always liked to eat, Michele said. There
are days when the doorbell rings and for a split second you forget what happened
and you think James is going to walk through the door.
"Well
never be over this. This will never, never end for the Cartier family, she
said.
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